Move on..dont turn back anymore. Ahead of u lies alot of great stuff not to be missed!
Some ppl say time wil let us forget some stuff, even some things which we dont hope to forget. but i can stil remember our promises..our agreements, lifetime agreements. e smses n letters i wrote for our friendship, they are tearing as well. just like tt 2 mths have passed. i stil hold u close in my heart. hoping each time i open my eyes, u wil b there. hoping each day e sun rises again, we wil renew our old memories together. no matter wad..ill always remember our promises filled w happiness. cus of these promises, ill hold on to a hope..to c u again..to b bac s friends w u again. jus cus i believe.
distance usually allow ppl to b pulled further apart. y is tt e further im away from u..e more i miss u dearly. haha wats this? true love for a fren? or m i jus thinking too much on my part? i tot i cld move on..i tot i cld live happier without u..i tot i cld get newfound memories w frens around me nw, i tot i cld simply replace a whole of ppl jus for 2 of u my 'hands'. i tot i tot...but these were jus wishful thinking on my part. parts can b replaced yes..but they wil always b different from e previous ones. yea ive found new ppl to replace u both...but e feelin wil always b different. at times ill wonder...wil u feel a tiny bit of loss without me by ur side? wil u feel lost or sth amiss in life? jus like i do? i cant believe tt.. i wil miss contributing more to u..ill miss givin in to u..ill miss cheerin u up..ill miss keeping secrets for u..til e extent tt i miss throwing away my pride for u..haha this is absurd. on the other hand..im tired..so tired to even do anythin to get our frenships back..since i said i wont do anythin again, i meant it. all i hope is for love to elude me once more..to wan u both to b happier than me. if permitted, i wanna exchange all tt i have for ur happiness. s long s u r happy, nth else matters.
on my side.. m tryin hard to slp late at nite, to chill outside more, stay bac in office til wee hours..tt wil keep me so occupied so when i reach my bedside, ill jus drop on bed n slp til dawn. in time to come..ill forget my 'hands' haha yes jamie can do it.
dear god..pls gimme strength..i need to hold on til my last breath. pls allow me to breathe easier and live for frens n family who care so much for me n wan me to move on..with em by my side, ill survive. ill endure n make it. :) i believe. cus jamie's superwoman!! lol.
Well wel wel..enough of e emotional part. haha life's gettin more exciting each day!! with more ppl entering my life..in n out.with me meeting at least 2 clients per day. at e same time helping out in yrly pc show which really was enthralling n amazing experience!! haha made some nice frens there n realised so many of us were capricorns!! haha nevertheless, we helped each other fight sales n really did a gd job!! lol. anyways many ppl thought i changed job. muahwha hello.. jamie wil nv leave aia on her own accord. yea? :P my fren needs help in pc show so i tot i could help out. at e same time widen my social circle n spread many namecards. hee. haha e pc show was really crowded w many ppl n i was selling sony cameras!! aww man im so so in love with T300 in red!! its sooo pretty n i cant keep my eyes off it! haha therefore i sold most of tt. hhaha theres this cute boy who is a lil gayish but so adorable!! e way he did sales..aww man i cldnt help but laugh all e way. when he explained to customers e specifications of e camera...he was like
" so u know right...this is a gd camera..cus it has many colors. n then right...u can zoom many times. over here right...u can use e flash n off it. u see? such an amazing camera..RIGHT?"
hahaha i nearly dropped off from e counter. i mean he was sooo adorable tt e speed hes goin..those ppl listenin to him can jolly well slp la huh. den e benefits of e camera he mentioned were wad most cameras had!! haha so cute.. so i helped him explained more of wad sony cameras had which others didnt have. in terms of memory stick, Carl Zeiss lense, Intelligent Scene Recognition, anti shake, smile shutter bla3. lol. anyways altho hes jus so innocent n cute..tt entertained me for e whole pc show. haha. thnk u dear.
hmm..durin e rdshow i realised e sole of my feet were so painful. haha perhaps cus we stood for more than 10 hrs. in e end i stil managed to chiong al e way n sold up to 24 cameras in e last day!! well last sun was fathers' day. i smsed daddy n told him i owe him a gift n a nice meal. cus i had to work so cldnt celebrate w him on sun. there was once when i was at e counter..one father came over n bought 2 cameras. n he told me hes gettin gifts for himself, as fathers' day present. sigh tt was so sad to hear!! where r his freakin kids. gdness. in e end i gave him another 4GB memory stick as fathers' day present. sigh poor uncle..hes such a nice soul n to think tt he had to buy sth for himself to celebrate fathers' day. seriously i realise many ppl usually celebrate mothers' day or they dont even celebrate fathers' or mothers' day. i wonder wads wrong with e new generation or society these days. have they got no idea tt without their parents, there wont b existence of themselves n their achievements? wad is this..not even thankful for wad their parents did. yes i knw its not a mus only fathers' or mothers' day then treat parents better cus we shd treat them good every single day. but e fact is ppl jus arent tt filial these days. sigh. m soo freakin disappointed. i sincerely hope tt these unfilial kids will experience e same from their kids in future. SINCERELY. damn... all e kukus. sigh. seriously to me, even if u achieve alot, but if u r not filial, u r NOTHING, nth to me at all. not even worth a penny. indeed.
there were old men walking abt..alone n e emptiness from their eyes, made me tear in my hrt. cld feel e pain for em. sigh. nevertheless i chiong sales for last day n go all e way out, talkin to 2 or 3 customers at one go. hahaha in e end Sony in-charge want me to join Sony. ermmm no thnks. i wld love to but i cant forget my clients in AIA. haha no choice. of cus i dont mind joining e next IT show. haha since its jus 4 days commitment. :)
hmm recently i met into an old man n talked to him bout life. lol he was in his 80s n he seemed so lonely. he told me of his trips to different countries in e past, new zealand bein e best country he'd been to. we chatted bout his past life as a IT engineer, when he got married n now livin alone by himself in eunos. i was praising him on how healthy he seemed even at this old age. n he told me live til so long no point. his wife not by his side n kids have moved on to lead their family lives. if he'd choose, he wldnt wanna live til so old. gdness tts indeed sad to hear. he painstakingly brought up his kids n now, hes al alone, altho stil a lil positive n having a smile al e time. all i cld do was chat w him a lil while longer n keep him positive abt life.
wel this experience made me realise even more e importance of health n filial piety. if one day, my love were to leave dis world 1st, id stil have my kids w me. if one day i leave 1st, he'd stil have our kids to b by his side. i wldnt wan my love to b all alone by himself when im gone. tt mus b so sad. haha well such things r hard to say. life's so unpredictable n we jus got to accept wad we have n lead positively. many things may seemed e way it is on the outside, but deep inside, it cld b e other way round. jus like how ppl admire longevity. lol. well m starting to think livin til such old age..may not b sth so gd after all. it all depends on case to case basis. lol. ennie i knw u wanna live til ripe old age. dont worry im sure u will. together w ur hubby n lovely kids. haha wish u all e best!!! Anyways HAPPY BELATED BDAE HUAI EN!!! haha sorry this entry is late but at least i send u sms on ur bdae la huh. ps la ur present will arrive shortly!!! hee nevertheless, i love u bestie.
n i jus wanna thank 3 special persons in my life right now..1stly, rj. haha hes someone new who entered my life n taught me lots with his own morals n all, always there to cheer me up w his riddles n all. indeed a great fren to talk hrt-to-hrt with. met him once n we went to sing den walked around chinatown. haha chatted lots bout life n realised tt there r ppl who think deep in life too. perhaps due to e fact tt there r too many shallow ppl in life, cant b blamed. they r who they are. haha rj n i cld clique cus we think deep tog. haha our thinking jus matches cus of our experiences, readings in life. haha tts y i always nv hesitate to tel him my probs online. he wld analyse everythin so nicely n den sing to cheer me up. m grateful for tt n he made me realise i shd b happy for ppl around me, not brood over past. haha tts a nice gentleman here. thnk u so much for ur efforts n pls do come to me if u have probs to, since we knw bottling everythin inside isnt gd. haha gd luck for u n all e best in ur future endeavours! meet up soon to catch up my fren!!
2ndly, ivan. haha hes like a big bro to me. who cares bout my health n always wan me to go home early to accompany my mom. money can nv stop comin in..but wads e point if mom cant enjoy it w me? hhaaha hes always tellin me i can earn alot, but mom only got one. so treasure her when shes stil around. haha at times when i work so hard, i tend to come bac late when mom's waitin at home for me. altho in e day i always spend time w her til i go out in late noon, id tend to neglect her due to late nights. sigh.. ivan woke me up n i realise tt i got to think for mom more. b there for her, spend time w her while i stil can. haha thnks for e tinkle ivan!! ur e man man!!
3rdly, belle. haha this belle indeed rings a bell in my life! shes my long lost fren! i found her recently bout a couple of mths bac. haha m so grateful she entered my life once more n we r bac to gd' o sisters again. belle nv fails to cheer me up whenever im down n forever tellin me tt i stil have her, regardles of anythin. awww such a sweetie!! too bad guys, shes taken. muahwaha. nevertheles, shes right. with her around, im contented. haha now in my life, i jus wanna focus on career, frenship n family. haha these r my priorities n love shall leave it to fate!! muahwah it wil come when e time is ripe! i don have to date around to find out whos e special one. i got better things to do like focusing on career? haha. indeed. we don need to find love, love wil come when its right person at right time. =) hey darlin belly!! i love u!!! always always..best sisters til end of time! haha muaah.
kk guess most of u r way deep in lalaland. haha enough of my losoh-ness. anyways i say wad i feel. not to entertain anyone. :) tts all for my life now. haha jamie will move on n make e most outta her life!!! vrrrrrrrrooooooom. im off. :)
Posted at Wednesday, June 18, 2008 by
jamielim512
